I'm glad that my mother came back from her trip to California with only the minor experience of going to an ER for a severe bacterial infection plus some kidney problems. However, she decided to talk to me about her possibly moving back to California after her lease is up this next year.
While I'd ❤ to be back in my home state someday, this is not the first time she (or another family member) has dangled that proverbial carrot in front of me. In fact, between her, my late dad, and the older sibling unit (who shall remain nameless) have ALL teased about that prospect. And while I admit the temptation is there, I cannot ignore that I'd be leaving behind the connections I've built in Colorado.
The problem is that they've dangled this particular "carrot" in front of me so many times that I've grown to simply ignore it, and let them have their little tickle in their heads to move and then watch it fizzle out as quickly as it came.
Of course I want to go home someday. Live out my life in my home state, especially in a house with tons of music equipment & maybe a couple of other rooms for entertainment & possibly some extra rooms for possible guests. I said "possible guests". But as the great song by "The Who" says, "We won't get fooled again!" I think that very much applies here.
Plus, I am getting ready to go back to school @ Arapahoe Community College, I just won my financial aid appeals, and have plans to attend at least through this next year in 2020. I want to finish what I set out to do in 2013, albeit with a different goal now that I've accepted I will never work a regular job, or a job concerning computer tech systems, again. I mean, the pay would be fucking extraordinary, but the stress is just not worth it.
Though I have to admit that being near the ocean again, going to the beaches, & having NO SNOW (for the most part) in the winter are very enticing qualities. And I'm sure I'd be far more active having less time trapped indoors for any number of reasons.
The 30th anniversary of my moving out of California will be coming up in 2022. Particularly June 20th, 2022. Maybe then, it'll be time to consider that I go home once & for all. Just not now. Not when I have so much going for me here in Colorado.
