My mother doesn't seem to understand a few things. And she sure as shit doesn't like that my ocuplastics eye surgeon wants to fix a long-standing problem with my left eye socket upper eyelid. The surgeon also wants to, simultaneously, take care of a long-term problem of having goopy buildup of the prosthesis that is from the eye just being stuck wide open 24/7.
While I love my mother, she has no idea what it's like to try to sleep while one eye just sticks open. I have tried using an eye patch, but that only helps a little bit. She has no idea the major inconvenience and frustration it is to have to clean up the goopy buildup that often gets crusted, dried up, and that hurts a lot when it's not taken care of.
I understand that she's concerned, especially after last time my eye surgeon did a procedure to try to fix the problem with the prosthetic eye, and the upper eyelid of the eyeball-less left eye socket. I was very upset afterward for a variety of reasons, but part of that was because there wasn't any normal "surgery preparation", i.e. no food or drinks after midnight the night beforehand, because there was no general anesthesia. Just a local anesthetic.
And because of no surgery prep that would've been necessary, about halfway through the surgical procedure, I had to go to the bathroom like nobody's business. I mean, it hurt to have to hold it in for longer than an hour. Plus, I was dealing with getting sick all of the time with nausea, *fake vomiting* dry heaves, & having potty accidents from the other end.
Now, though, my eye surgeon would probably do a surgery with general anesthesia, which means normal surgery prep would be in effect. To be free of the constant frustration and stress of cleaning the prosthetic DAILY, and to finally be able to sleep with both eyes closed instead of having ONE eye stuck open all of the time, I think it'd be worth it to go through a procedure that should help fix the upper eye lid problem.
I'm sorry for the long rant, but I had to get this off my chest since it was obvious my mother didn't want to discuss this the other day. She was, at first, arguing about it, and then when I was trying to advocate my position, suddenly she didn't want to argue about it anymore.
/rant box de-activated, saving entry to personal log of Admiral Blind Man JRK.
