Hope is never a wasted emotion or a wasted effort!

As I sit here watching something fun, i.e. "Lilo & Stitch" (a great standby movie for any occasion, but especially for today's events), I thought to myself, "If only I were proficient with music on piano, guitar, or my personal favorite, the drums, then I could help people that way.  Help them to heal!"

I mean, it sounds easier said than done, but if only I could be helpful that way, play for charities, especially for a victims' fund, or for people with vision impairments like myself blind in one or both eyes due to either birth defects or by an injury, etc, or play to help a fundraiser for people with disabilities (again, like myself), or help disaster relief funds, the possibilities are abundant.

The main thing I want to do, though, is use my music degree for something good.  Something that can help turn the tides, as it were, against the negativity that seems to drive our world nowadays.  Sometimes, I feel like I've failed my 1st 40 years of my life in pursuit of riches with being something that, to be fair, I'm not even that great with.  I mean, yeah, I'm a good computer tech, but I'm not even in the top 5k of the world's best I.T. people, not even in the top 20k of the United States.  I'd settle for being in the top 5M of the country's best computer support techs!  LOL  Though, seriously, I couldn't see how being a computer support tech would ever be a gamechanger in the battle of good vs. asshattery/fuckery!  I guess that's one among many other reasons I chose to abandon that career path. 

Whereas the idea of being an artist, a musician more specifically, can be a much more rewarding experience.  I know it's not quite the same, but when I saw on Star Trek: The Next Generation a blind man being the Enterprise's (NCC-1701-D) helmsman, later promoted to chief engineer, that gave me tons of hope while growing up w/ blindness in my left eye from a birth defect caused by Congenital Rubella Syndrome.  I know it's not quite the same as being influential from a musical standpoint, but LeVar Burton's portrayal of a blind helmsman is what helped me hope for my own future in life.  If a helmsman of the Enterprise can be a blind man, then I could sure as shit drive a car.  Provided I'm only blind on my left.  Otherwise, things might be different.

Who knows?  Maybe I will end up inspiring someone who has or had blindness or something else that is their disability.  But the main thing is that I don't want to contribute to the negative bullshit that we deal with already in this world.  I want to do something good, and worthwhile to be memorialized in music.

I believe in the power of music, and the power of using words to help someone to heal, or to feel like they have a stake in their own future, as well as the future of this world as well.  I believe that ONE voice can be more powerful than a thousand voices put together, and that either my music or someone else's will end up helping someone who has their own troubles in their life.  And even if ONE person is impacted in a positive manner from my music or artwork, or even if it's from someone else's, then I believe that as an artist, I've done my job getting my message across on some level or in some form.