Sometimes I want to scream!

There are times I want to simply scream at the top of my lungs!

If I wasn't already inflicted by Non-alcoholic liver cirrhosis, I would ❤ to be drinking right about now.  Unfortunately, I can't.  Well, it depends.  I think it's both good & bad that I can't have any beer or any liquor.  Bad that I can't have any due to non-alcoholic fatty liver disease,  but good because I can't think of any GOOD reason to be f***ing wasted.  Though, I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought that being like the sibling might help me to not care about such things in my life that I don't have any measurable control over.

*sigh*  I stay with this person because their significant other isn't always reliable, or when they are they often waste this person's resources (food, supplies, etc), or feed this person's dog things that the dog shouldn't have to begin with.  I stay because this person refuses to get outside help or to even ask for that external help.  I stay because the older sibling, whose stay was more about them having a vacation without their work using that person's vacation time, but calling it FMLA time, would not put up with even 1/4th the shit I've had to over the last 10 yrs or so.

Nope.  I guess I'm a sucker to be the kind one.  Being the "understanding" adult child who wants to genuinely help, but I end up getting this person's vitriolic feelings.  Especially when they either don't feel well, or when they're frustrated, or have a feeling of tiredness, or they're in pain.  I mean, I get it.  Pain sucks.  But to take it out on people who don't deserve it is all kinds of wrong.

I'll be damned happy when I'm back to attending classes again this upcoming 2019 Fall semester, and being far more unavailable to this person to be used as their emotional dumping ground or their proverbial "punching bag".  I'm beyond done dealing with this person asking me something, and when I say no, they ask again as though my answer "No" is code for "Oh, maybe on second thought!", and then when I say "No!" again with an exasperated tone, this person makes it seem like I'm not allowed to be annoyed having to repeat myself more than once!

But again, it'll be great not being available to be this person's emotional punching bag.  Their "I'm going to dump all of my emotional garbage onto you, and since you have no other place to put it, you'll have to put up with me despite having moved away!" sort of punching bag!

*SIGH*

I swear I think I need to be involved with either someone or something to get this person to stop treating me this way.  I've done nothing but try to be helpful, and this is the kind of treatment I get in return.  I think I'm done being the helpful adult child.  I would like to be involved with someone who appreciates what I do to help, not reward it with mistreatment or bile abuse.